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INTERNATIONAL WOMEN'S DAY

Bhaadhalu leni jeevitham kosam,

Kalathalu leni nidhra kosam,

Prathi rojoo aaloshishthoo,

Prathi raathree prayathnishthoo,

Nirvedhamtho nirantharam karigi pothoone unnaanu,

Sahanamtho maro tharaanni shrustisthoone unnaanu.

For a life devoid of complexities,

For a sound sleep without any disturbances,

I am thinking every day,

I am trying every night,

Melting myself continuously with pain and distress,

Yet creating another generation patiently on and on.

The first version is in Telugu. The following version is its translated version into English by me. I emailed this entry from the email id of my wife Srijana, recently, in response to the invitation of folks of Telugu daily Eenadu, from women candidates only, for publication in their daily, on 8 March, 2011, on the occasion of International Women's Day. They did not publish anything related to this invitation. I posted it here for you.

I LOVE YOU

Deepthi: Do you celebrate Valentine’s Day?

I: No. I love others celebrating it but I did not find such girls, who want me to love them this way.

Deepthi: What is love for you?

I: It is intense psychic attachment with somebody or something, for some time or long, happening within or beyond logic, when observed by outsiders as unbiased idealists and thinkers.

Deepthi: Folks of orthodoxy do not encourage love and lovers in their societies. Why?

I: They choose to live according to their tradition and culture. They think love is against those beliefs and principles. They think that youth don’t know how to build up their lives and careers in the right way. Time changes many creatures and things around us. They are also changing slowly across the world.

Deepthi: In English dictionaries, love means sex also. Can’t we think of love beyond sex?

I: Sex means love expressed through lust related to our material bodies. I think the feelings of sex and attraction motivate boys and girls and men and women toward falling in love with others in different circumstances. We can enjoy sex when we are young. As our relationship with others develops into further levels of mutual understanding and admiration, we start according much importance to our love for others than sex with them. Sex may be a little part of love but love does not mean sex for me. Unfortunately, many are understanding love as sex now. One has to approach a prostitute when one wants to have sex with a female. Similarly, women must also be allowed to enjoy such kind of life in every society. Sex is an inevitable bodily instinct but it should be controlled when we are living in a civilized and cultured society. Culture means doing things without disturbing the interests and choices of others. It is imposing some restrictions upon us to accord liberty and related happiness to others also. Sex is an animal instinct meant for reproduction and related pleasure for a few minutes. Love is a human trait needed to make and keep a society bearable, orderly and admirable for long.

Deepthi: How should we express our love to others?

I: We should do it studying the tendencies of the other creature and circumstances around us in a given period of time. Sensitive people often fail to express their love to others. Some do not know how to reach their sense of rejection to the proposals of love from others. Such boys and girls neglect others altogether. It is not good. Many lovers want some kind of response from the other. Silence is crime.

Deepthi: Many perverted blokes are attacking girls in India now in the name of love. Can we avoid it?

I: We can avoid it when girls and women speak lovingly with unfamiliar boys and men also in our nation. Many crave for the friendship of some girl or woman, when they are growing as human beings. It happens because opposite genders feel attracted to each other. Girls and women are rigid and unkind in many parts of India even now in understanding and behaving toward males around them at home, office or other places of interaction. When a fellow talks something with them, they remain silent and go way. They think that such blokes are worthless rogues. They can say something softly with them and make them relieved to that extent instead of neglecting or ignoring them altogether. If 100 boys are following a girl, let them follow her. She can make all of them into her batch of direct lovers or indirect admirers. Thus she can enjoy her life. When she gets ready to marry one of them or somebody else later, the remaining blokes distance themselves from her slowly. Love means ideal selfishness. They leave her when they realize that she cannot love and marry all of them. Some Indian parents are still considering their daughters as highly dependent and innocent creatures at many levels. They are blocking their channels of liberal communication and relationship with boys thinking that it may lead to immoral sex between them. They should explain their daughters the difference between accepted modes of sex and avoidable forms of sex in Indian society based on their culture, if they got any at all. Choice to have morally appreciable or avoidable sex with others must be left to girls and boys. Some girls may have many male friends but they do not think and enjoy that relationship in terms of sex. They intuitively feel like sharing that aspect of their life with their life partner only after marriage. The same is the case with boys also. We cannot detect and control the thoughts and behavior of boys and girls always. So, what we can do is to stop discussing much about love and sex at home or outside. Let anything happen naturally. They realize what is right and wrong in course of time because they got brains and conscience. Girls became very selfish and narrow-minded now in comparison to boys. They are acting in their lives more than necessary. Those boys, who expect something from girls, but fail to receive any kind of feedback from them, for a long time, resort to cruel ways of retaliation against such girls. Boys change only when girls change in every part of India. Above all, parents must educate their children, from their early childhood, regarding refined and sensitive ways of conduct with others. It is not happening in India now. When parents fail in upbringing their children well, a society can’t be good for all to live happily. Girls must take such precautionary measures from unreliable boys, which do not look apparent and insulting to others. Girls are always a vulnerable lot in comparison to boys. Girls must remember this reality when enjoying their liberty in unfamiliar places with known and unknown people. We cannot predict when a man assaults a woman, being compelled by his instincts of attraction and sex for the other. So, girls and women must be brave and prepared enough to face anything, when they are at home or outside. All human beings have animal instincts in them, including me. When they fail to control them, they cannot live as good human beings. So, being alert is important than being insensitive towards boys and men of all kinds always. Encouraging the best ones and discouraging the bad ones is also necessary. Girls can do it making boys and men understand it indirectly. But, unfortunately, girls and women are running after money and other attractions, associated with boys and men, now, rather than their admirable qualities. So, such bad girls and women are indirectly villains to many sensitive and good girls and women around them. They are getting victimized by such rogues and scoundrels, who are prepared and encouraged by immoral and money-minded girls and women. To change and improve the mindsets of another race, you must improve the standards and values of your race first. It is not happening in India now.

Deepthi: Is not falling in love with many wrong? Is such love acceptable and enjoyable?

I: We bring another puppy into our house when we lose one because we love puppies basically, not that particular puppy only, except in very exceptional cases. Our memories about the first puppy do not die even if we bring another puppy into our house because generally first love has a kind of uniqueness in our lives. We keep bringing puppy after puppy into our house as long as we love puppies because one puppy does not live for 100 years in our house. Similarly, many love girl after girl or many girls at a time because they are essentially in love with girls, not one particular girl. Very few love and remain with the thoughts and memories of one boy or girl. It is hurting themselves to some extent. Memories, related to our deepest love with somebody, who went away from us, or died, torture us every day. To avoid it, we must love or admire another girl, when the first one disappeared from our life. Since we must make our life bearable and delightful, using the resources available to us, we must start falling in love with Rita when Gita moves out of our mind of attachment, beliefs, imaginations and dreams. Nothing is permanent in this material world, including those whom we love deeply. Those, who do not like to love many, must fall in love with sun, sea, moon and nature, instead of girls and women. Human beings are unreliable because they cannot control their thoughts and actions always. So, falling in love with only one creature and remaining with that one only forever is ideal and admirable but it does not happen in many cases.

Deepthi: Is it not wrong to associate love with beauty always! Love can happen without beauty.

I: Beauty attracts many immediately. Many love beauties though all of them do not express their sense of love and admiration to them being scared of the circumstances and society around them. Many love Aiswarya Rai because they think that she is beautiful but they don’t ask her to marry them since they know that Abhishek Bachchan is her destined husband in this birth of hers. Society makes them so. Ram Gopal Varma loves Sridevi but he did not kidnap her from the house of Boney Kapoor. He knows that it is not right on his part to kidnap a married woman. Our culture keeps us so. I observed many folks interestingly looking at my wife Srijana when I was beside her also. They must be taking me as a worthless bloke or her honorary bodyguard! I understand typical Indian mentality and leave them. If I feel very possessive of her, I should quarrel with them and stab them to death before moving to a prison. In a civilized society, no beauty can be loved and admired by her life partner only. Husband is like a licensed dude to own and delight in her company and physical sense. Every beauty would have many secret admirers beyond her interests, choices and knowledge. Beauty attracts us. Later we name it ‘love’. Akkineni Nagarjuna struggled a lot to make Amala fall in love with him once. Now he left her to spend most of her time with animals and birds. He is dancing with heroines for his films. Love declines in course of time as Ram Charan Tej argues in his Telugu film “Orange”. Beauty attracts us intensely when we see it for the first time. We stop finding it much interesting and exciting when we get it and start living with it. So, I think that beauty and love have such relationship. Everybody cannot love and/or marry a beauty. So, many adjust with considerable and negligible ones also but they don’t stop admiring beauties around them. Our sensitive love turns into admiration when we cannot get what we love despite our efforts. If 1000 extraordinary beauties issue a public notice, expressing their interest to marry 1000 folks, choosing them by a lottery, to avoid court cases and such other complications, can you imagine how many folks apply to them? If an ordinary woman, with extraordinary qualities, with a little physical beauty, does so, very few apply to her. Somehow men are crazy and possessive of arresting female beauty rather than other attractions in this world. Many millionaires, billionaires and celebrities are spending billions of rupees, across the world, to spend with beauties. This is why prostitution is that rampant in this world. This is why many blokes are often flying to Bangkok from India on the pretext of film shootings and tourist interest. Where beauty is available for a price, there we find millions of boys and men, craving to enjoy those pleasures of body. This is applicable to girls and women also. Since male prostitution did not spread much till now in this world, this race is unlucky to that extent. Innocent and helpless girls or women must not be thrown into prostitution in any part of the world but if conscious and intelligent ones want to take it as their profession, like banking and computers, let them choose it. I think it is also a kind of social service when done voluntarily by them. They can stop some brutes from spoiling the beauty and quality of mainstream sensitive and refined societies to that extent. From this perspective, I think, love and beauty have a strong relationship across the world in all ages. Many fought and died for beauties in the past. Now we are craving for the looks of really beautiful actresses in the film industry and otherwise.

Deepthi: Why are conservative societies against love, lovers and love marriages?

I: People in conservative societies are essentially mad, immoral, irrational and illogical ones. I know about many rogues, who have immoral bodily relationships with many girls and women, despite having beautiful wives in their homes. They talk about virtues in public places but their assistants arrange prostitutes for them. Rich people go for costly prostitutes. Ordinary blokes in villages, towns and cities resort to their familiar ones in their localities and communities. It means Indians are great hypocrites. They want marriage for formality and tradition sake and then sleep with any number of men or women after marriage. This is what is happening in India now. This is why condoms and other birth control measures are highly being encouraged and used in India now. It means majority Indians are immoral and unreliable in terms of their characters and collective culture, though they project themselves greatly outside. Such nasty and dirty Indians, who belong to our traditional aspect of Indian culture, have no moral rights to talk or do anything against love, lovers and love marriages in India. Honor killings reflect the horrible facet of Indian culture now. It is a big social crime. Such rogues of our conservative societies must be hanged publicly by our governments. If they don’t do it, youngsters must kill them publicly or secretly. Immoral dogs and bitches should not teach lessons of morality to us, even if they happen to be in our families and familiar societies. We must suppress or kill these silent villains in our society. Let a sage, who lived a morally and spiritually appreciable life, teach morals to us. Unfortunately, many politicians and celebrities, who think and behave worse than dogs and bitches in their personal and professional lives, are talking about morals now in India. We must kill them first to reform India because they do not change to our expectations. Then only good lovers can marry the girls of their choice, marry them easily, and live with them in whatever way they want. Until such rogues are killed or reformed in India, good lovers cannot live happily in India. We must have good character to be loved by others. We must search for such folks, love them and marry them if we really want to see our married lives as bearable and enjoyable. We should not love a girl or a boy for formality or fashion sake. Unfortunately, this is what is happening in our colleges, universities and offices now. For many youth, love is a decent way for sex or such transitory bodily pleasures rather than long-term goals and happiness. A few rogues are tarnishing the image of lovers and love marriages in India. So, even good people of conservative societies, are not accepting love marriages to take place in their families or societies. Youth must develop into good individuals first to change their elders at home. We must reform ourselves before pointing out mistakes in others. I am not happy with the mindsets, culture and trends of 80% of Indian youth now. I am 33. If they could not attract even me with their lifestyles and attitudes, how can they attract our elders? They lived better lives than us folks in our recent and distant past. So, they don’t allow their children to get spoilt or carried away in the network of unreliable love and marriages. However, about 30% of the present Indian marriages are love marriages. Change is in progress. Money and other attractions of the other creature are guiding these love marriages among Indian youth more than their characters and culture. If we marry idiots, being misguided by their tricks and tactics now, we get cheated one day and suffer silently. So, every boy and girl must check the character of the other person before indulging in love or marriage. One, who is looking good now, may become bad tomorrow. Then we can term it as our Karma. Choosing the best one today is important. What happens tomorrow may be left to our fate and time. Lovers should understand these notions and build their lives accordingly.

Deepthi: What is the best way to find, attract, retain, love, marry and live with a great fellow?

I: The best person knows how to do it. So, you should first know what you think to be the best according to your logic and intelligence levels. Then you should find the best one using your hard work and vision. Do not delegate this responsibility to your parents, siblings or others. They don’t love your life as you love it. For them, it may be a formality but for you it is a great duty. You are the best person to think and decide what the best is for you. If you think that you are not that intelligent and patient enough to do all these things; don’t expect the best one to come into your life. Leave your life to chance. The best things may happen in your life only if you are the best person and struggle to do the best for you always. You need to do it every day in your life, not for a few weeks or months.

Deepthi: Did girls and women grow as individuals in India now in comparison to the recent past?

I: I think that 80% of Indian girls and women did not grow as individuals even now. They are more interested in beautifying themselves with cosmetic surgeries, fairness creams, lotions, facelifts, clothes and such other worthless lifestyle changes rather than improving their levels of knowledge and intelligence reading books, touring places, interacting with great people, helping their parents at home and improving their understanding of the world doing such many constructive and useful things. My wife Srijana went to a nearby beauty parlor twice or so till now in my knowledge to beautify her eyebrows. It means that she does not have self-confidence about her beauty. She is suffering from a kind of inferiority complex. There are many useful books in my abode, including English dictionaries. She never felt an intuition to read them and improve her standard of thoughts and ideas about her life and others around them. Internally I consider her as a “worthless idiot in many respects” because she stopped growing as an individual years ago. She has the knowledge and psychic growth of a schoolgirl only even now. Her physical beauty is only her asset, on which she cannot depend for long. She does not have confidence about that beauty also. She has about 30 saris. I have five or six pairs of clothes only. Indian girls and women, both educated and uneducated, both rich and poor, are still more interested in gold and their physical appearance, than their psychic growth and measures to achieve it at their level. Srijana is a typical educated modern Indian girl. Since she adhered to Indian tradition, she married me listening to the words of her parents. Since I always try to guide her, using my intelligence and vision for her, she is saved to that extent. Instead of depending on me for guidance, she should advise and challenge me with her intelligence and vision. It happens only when she starts growing as an individual. She is doing almost nothing to achieve it now. I am uncertain about future. When you fail to improve your life, you need to depend on God and others. They may not help you always. It means you are making your life risky and vulnerable without doing anything when you got time and opportunities to grow at your level. On the other hand, boys and men don’t concentrate much on their physical appearance. Men are driving lorries, trains, ships, aeroplanes and doing many such other hard jobs even now in India. Men are greater than women in many respects in India. Many Indian girls and women still identify themselves as objects of beauty and sex only. You can observe this trend more in films and politics. Why should an educated beauty get ready to sleep with any dog for chances to act in films directed and produced by bastards?

Deepthi: At one level, you love beauties, and, at another level, you criticize them severely!

I: I respect every girl and woman, who is hard-working, honest and reliable. I love a girl if she spends 100 rupees for her beautification and 900 rupees for improving her life now or minding her future, when she is earning 1000 rupees every month doing something appreciable depending on her present abilities. What if a girl spends 900 rupees for her clothes and creams every month, when her father gives her 1000 rupees for her pocket money when she is going to a school, college or university? It means she is a shallow parasite. She is misusing her father’s money to beautify herself. It means she is suffering from inferiority complex. It means she is not trying to improve her skills of earning and struggle for existence when she is being supported by her father but misusing her time and energy to beautify herself, by which she cannot attract others for long. Almost every girl, who is coming across me some way, belongs to this lot now, when I observe her thoughts and lifestyle. They are going to colleges to get a highly-earning husband but not to enrich their knowledge and power of self-reliance. Many female software engineers, across India and abroad, are suffering from a sense of false prestige and excess ego now. They do projects of many levels for their clients in their offices but they cannot bravely talk with an unfamiliar fellow on a road. They are scared of strangers. It means they stopped growing to that extent. They love animals more than men around them because they stopped growing to that level. They spend a lot of money for cellphones, films, cosmetics, clothes and pubs but not for good ways of living and understanding others. Our money and assets do not help and guide us always but the character and identity we develop for ourselves investing our thoughts and efforts. Many highly educated, rich and intelligent girls and women are also thinking and behaving like worthless and shallow creatures now. I am observing such culture almost everywhere now. I don’t love such girls and women. I just appreciate their beauty because I don’t lose anything doing it. If a beauty dies in a road accident, I feel internally “Check how she grew up and why she died?” but not “Which rogue caused it and how unlucky she is!” Others don’t build up the character of a beauty but she. If she fails to do it in time, she fails in her life at some stage or dies in pitiable conditions leaving a sad story behind her. Beauties without characters attract me as an admirer of beauty but not as an individual. I love the surface of the moon as long as I don’t know about the phenomena of drawbacks and demerits in it. An admirer of beauty like me is like a sensible and kind hunter in a forest. He runs after beauties one after one, appreciating their beauty but not worrying about their lives ahead in that mysterious and dangerous forest. He expects them to think and work for themselves. He advises and guides them only when they seek his advice and guidance. He does not interfere in their lucky or unlucky lives without invitation. A beauty should not spoil her life being misguided by the admiration of many folks like me in this corrupt and unreliable society. Her primary responsibility is to grow as an admirable creature and enjoy the appreciation of others on the way but not considering the praise of others as her only asset in this material world. Beauty fades when we are growing. We cannot depend on it for long. Our intelligence, hard work and vision guide us until we die. We must develop and depend on them if we are really sensible to some extent. I love such girls and women. We love actresses on screen but achievers in real life. Virtues are stronger than our assets.

Deepthi: The folks of Bajrang Dal are arranging marriages for love related folks in public places.

I: They still think that Indian culture is better than love and marriages among many worthless Indian youth. They don’t do it when Indian youth grow as individuals first. Our admirable characters must change others silently but not our loud slogans, colorful placards and trivial demonstrations on streets.

Deepthi: I love you.

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Deepthi is my friend and honorary adviser. She met me today in a lovers’ park in Hyderabad. She is active in interviewing me but lazy in posting it somewhere for others to read it. I did it for you here. I don’t mind if you take it as a piece of fiction discussing love, lovers, youth and marriage in contemporary India on the occasion of this Valentine’s Day. You are at liberty to apply your imaginations just like me!  

BOOSI JEJANNA

I: Why did you start Praja Rajyam Party?

Chiranjeevi: Being inspired by great social reformers like Mahatma Gandhi, Mahatma Jotiba Govindrao Phule and Dr B R Ambedkar. My idea was to bring social justice into the lives of millions of poor people in Andhra Pradesh first and rest of the nation later slowly. I have great ideals and values. It was a life of imaginations then.

I: Did you think that other political parties failed to achieve those lofty goals in India so far?

Chiranjeevi: Yes. I established myself as a great film actor, social reformer, visionary, dreamer, achiever, martyr, intellectual and thinker struggling hard for 30 years in the Telugu film industry. I thought that God sent me into India to change the lives of all just like that. So, my party was a historical need as such.

I: What kind of people joined your political party?

Chiranjeevi: Rogues and scoundrels of all kinds joined my party because they thought that I am worse than them in many respects. I regret their understanding about me. They stayed with me for some time expecting much from me. Soon they realized that I was expecting more from them. Some jumped out of my playground and some remained with me for some reasons before elections only.

I: What happened after the Assembly Election in 2008 in Andhra Pradesh?

Chiranjeevi: Before elections, my hope was that I would become the chief minister of Andhra Pradesh just like that considering my image as a film star and the madness of my fans in this state. It did not happen. Only 18 fellows are the assets of my party after these elections. I regretted it internally but acted differently outside. I am essentially an actor. I do it until my last breath. In politics also I continue it. So, I told all that defeat and success are common in political games of India. It is my dialogue. In films, others write dialogues for me. In politics, I devise and use my attractive dialogues. Some folks moved out of my party even after this election. Then only I could realize how foolish and stupid I am essentially. Great people can gain and retain others. Ordinary people cannot do it.

I: Good people quit politics when they get hurt due to direct public opinion. You did not do it! Can you bear if I use a very bad word defining your character?

Chiranjeevi: When one is around 60, one’s legs, hip, hands and head do not move fast for dance or fight scenes in real life. Already youth entered the Telugu film industry. Old age was occupying my body and spirit slowly. Then I did not know how to retain my great image as a celebrity. Slowly I realized that anybody can become a celebrity in politics in India with a few lies and many frauds. I entered politics to retain my declining image as a film star but it kept going down even in this field. It happened especially because I collected huge amounts of money from aspiring candidates for MLA and MP positions. I set a figure for these both positions. My reliable agents collected five crore rupees from MP blokes and three crore rupees from MLA rogues. They wanted to earn more money with my support acquiring political power. It did not happen for all. Only successful candidates felt happy and the rest cried in their homes thinking about the bribes they paid me secretly. I must agree that I am essentially a money and fame lover. I do anything for them. People could understand it slowly. I am happy to that extent.

I: You often said that you got inspired by APJ Abdul Kalam to enter politics? You think he is a cheat and corrupt bloke like you!

Chiranjeevi: I used his name to support my intention to enter politics. I know very little about him because he does not belong to my class of people. Why should I bother about him? I often think about such politicians and businessmen, who know how to misguide, cheat and exploit people publicly. Money makes many things. Kalam is bad at this art. He talks about dreams and goals like you. It is the work of lunatics and fools. I am a mega star. I achieve what I want going to any extent. I did it in politics also. Let anybody join or leave my party at any time, I remained quiet and balanced. In politics, you don’t need self-respect or individuality but tactics of opportunism and hypocrisy. We talk about virtues publicly and do nasty things in our homes and offices. This is history. You can read it in books. The problem with me is that I cannot come out of a game once I enter it and fail in it very badly. Do we stop acting in a film if we are not happy with the first half of it which was already shot in many locations investing much money and hope? If we have to get our full amount of remuneration for a film, we should go ahead with it. Let producers live or die. My money is important for me. This is my inevitable tendency and mindset.

I: Why did you mix the dust of your political party in the dustbin of Congress?

Chiranjeevi: Dust particles must be in a dustbin only! This is why I did so. I know that Congress party is like a dirty pond. They extend their helpless hands to even more helpless blokes like me. They want political power like me. A thief likes another gang of thieves. My aim is to earn more fame and money through politics also. The aim of the Congress folks is also the same. Birds of the same feather flock together. If I remain in active field of politics for some time, the media folks focus their lights and cameras on me. Some folks discuss my life and politics here and there. What do I need more than that? I am earning money simultaneously. My close relatives are happy to that extent. They don’t discourage or encourage me in terms of my moves in politics because they know what I am really. I cannot change anybody in this nation and so my achievements as a politician are almost zero. Everybody knows it. Since I cannot accept it immediately before such people, who expected a lot from me when I entered politics, I indulge in such these nasty tricks for some time. I believe I am a star even now. Many are talking about me. It is enough for me. Present dirty celebrities want and enjoy such status of life and profession.

I: You never stopped using the phrase “social justice” ever since you entered politics. Can you explain me what you mean by that and what you did for it so far.

Chiranjeevi: Social justice means rich and energetic people frightening and exploiting poor and weak people around them. I collected money from comparatively poorer folks from me during elections. Congress Party is richer than me. They drop me a little during my association with them. Thus they try to uproot poverty in my life and psyche to some extent. Thus we will try to end poverty in this nation. If I become rich, poverty is defeated to that extent. If my MLAs become rich, poverty is avoided to that extent. Is it not social justice? Why should I bother about poor folks in this nation? They would be there in India as long as Indians are there in it. Some people take birth and die to help and guide them always. Intelligence lies in using the names of such achievers and thus benefitting at our level. This is my hidden agenda. I am an actor in body and spirit. I may talk and do anything to misguide people. Intelligent folks understand me properly and remain away from me. Foolish and stupid blokes allow me to cheat and exploit them in the long run. In India, cheating others is very easy because there are more number of illiterate and ignorant people than intelligent and visionary ones.

I: What do you think about Jaya Prakash Narayan of Lok Satta?

Chiranjeevi: He is an innocent fellow. He wants to teach the Bhagvad Gita to millions of fools and criminals in this nation. Such thinkers and idealists cannot change these people. Only cheats and liars like me can influence people fast. They learn great lessons observing my dirty life in politics and otherwise. Slowly they realize where they are now and where they should go. Before they go there, I will have achieved what I wanted. When a murder or robbery takes place in and around our house, we get alert and take precautionary measures. Do we do so if police teach us lessons and newspapers write on how to keep ourselves safe from these dangers? Indians are like lazy pigs. We must set fire to their tails to awake and reform them instead of making little sounds around them. This is what I am doing now. If I become and behave like a shameless dog as a politician, they reform at their level soon. They do not vote for worthless and brainless idiots like me in future. Is this not a kind of indirect delivery of social justice to my millions of fans and followers across the universe and galaxy?

I: Why do you tour places as a politician now and then?

Chiranjeevi: God gave me everything so far except enough time to spend with really poor and helpless people. They love my image as an actor more than my real life and character. We should visit them when they are living in dreams, fantasies and illusions centered on us. I go here and there to see people like any other typical Indian politician. Even if I distribute all my hard-earned money, can they become comfortable, happy and rich? So, we must understand realities first and act attractively later. This was what I did, am doing and will do. As a celebrity, we can tour places, attracting a few foolish blokes on the way towards our campaign van. You think Y S Jaganmohan Reddy is touring places with love for people and democracy in this nation? It is a useful time pass game for him. He plans to benefit from it when time is in favor of him. I am also such person though I don’t accept it publicly. When I could not understand the sensitive and innocent heart of my little daughter when she went away with a boy of her choice, how can I understand others in this state or nation? Human psychology is too mysterious to understand and comment on. So, what we can do simply is to let others understand what our real psychology is so that some can be friends to us and some enemies behind the screen. We need powerful villains to establish our hero role greatly against them. It is necessary in films and real life. My rivals comment against me. It is my strength indirectly. People know what I am directly. So, the grammar of my life as an actor and politician is solid both in direct and indirect tenses.

I: Don’t you feel ashamed of yourself to degrade to such dirty kind of life even after earning a lot of money and fame as a film actor? Why are you ruining your image to the worst level possible on your own? Are you mad or suffering from some major psychological disorder? Why don’t you consult a psychiatrist?

Chiranjeevi: You write this and that thinking that others change reading it. Do you know whether they changed or not? Still you are doing it because you love it. Similarly, I love this nasty game madly. It is essentially to keep in touch with people. Let them consider me as a bad man or gentleman; I am not bothered about it. They must talk about me just as they did it when I was an active film actor. I am a man of masses. They follow asses always. It is an interesting game altogether. Only insiders can feel and enjoy the essence and power of this dirty game. Let others spit on us. Let them pee on us. Let them call names. Let them live or die due to us. We must keep going as Chandrababu Naidu often says in public places. Going forward is important because we die slowly if we sit somewhere passively. Dynamism beautifies our life. Many talked about Veerappan when he was alive. Nobody is talking about Kalam now because he is not in any active field of dirty acts and plans. Both dictators and idealists have followers and admirers in all ages. What if you treat me as a villain now observing my moves as a politician? Do I lose anything? Opportunists and hypocrites follow me always. I would be a leader to them as long as they are with me. I love that status and feeling. How others write my history after my departure from this stage is not important for me but how I am enjoying my life now. I am happy with it. If you don’t like it, you do something else. Did I ask you to become a politician and spoil and deface your life like me? You know what is good for you. I know what is beneficial and profitable to me. Our ways are different now.

I: I loved you as a great film actor because you acted and danced in many extraordinary films so far. I hate you now because you are not the kind of person now whom I admired once.

Chiranjeevi: Girls love us as bachelors thinking that they may marry us if they find us interesting in course of time. They don’t follow us when they know that we are married. Then they develop a kind of feeling of distance and separation from us. We cannot remain unmarried to be loved and followed by many crazy and lazy girls. We marry some girl minding our present and future. That does not mean we hate them but they don’t understand it that way. They simply remain away from us. Similarly, you loved me as a film actor. You can do it always. Love me as a film actor and hate me as a politician. I am happy with both because I cannot change you just as you cannot change me to your expectations. Kamal Hassan acted in many great love story based films and turned into a classic figure in course of time but his married life disturbs us to a great extent. He does not look as an admirable person from that perspective. So, we should love people part by part, not wholly. We find very few people who possess such features and qualities, which can be loved and admired by many, for long. Unfortunately, I could not continue to be such a person after entering politics. I too don’t know why I became so. I curse myself now and then thinking about all I did so far but I am unable to set it right at this stage of my political game. It’s my fate. Forgive me if you can. We cannot change and build our life as per our interests and goals always. I cannot explain you my sad story now because you developed a bad impression about me according to your terms and principles. We love each other at one level but hate at another level.

I: Do you think that you have a bright political life ahead in association with the Congress Party?

Chiranjeevi: In fact, my admirable political life ended the moment I collected money from many candidates during elections last time. People started discovering the ugly and detestable aspects of my life slowly after this stage of my political career. Thereafter I remained in this game because I did not know how to come out of it immediately. I don’t know if I gain something or not in association with the Congress Party but I can tell you that I lose nothing because of them as there is nothing more to lose in my life. I lost everything already as a politician. Once many admired me as a great film actor but now they hate me because they did not like what I did in politics. Earning and retaining a great image is very difficult. I achieved and retained it as long as I was a film actor. I lost it when I became a politician. Some say it publicly and some talk about it beyond my presence and knowledge. I cannot control them. I entered a dirty game. I remained in it helplessly. I am experiencing the power of that bad effect now. I am just an automated machine now. I don’t know what I am doing and why I am doing so? My destiny is guiding me now without considering the dictates of my passive conscience. I am helpless.

I: You talked about values in your films like ‘Stalin’ and ‘Tagore’ once. Why did you fail to practice them as a politician? Do you think that people cannot distinguish between good and bad people on their own?

Chiranjeevi: I grew as a great film actor due to extraordinary contribution from many great directors, singers, choreographers, lyricists, musicians and producers. I always owe to them. They presented me as a social reformer in many films because they thought that I had such character and I suit such great roles. That credit goes to them, not to me at all, because I failed to be so in my real life. When I look back, I regret my present and celebrate my past. God gave me such life then and threw me into such this mire now. I think our Karma decides how we should live and die. I am subject to it. Common people are intelligent and kind. They appreciate us publicly when we live as heroes but they don’t criticize us so when we turn into villains in course of time and fail to impress them as great persons. When they start blaming and discarding idiots like me publicly, India changes within days. Until then, nobody can change India. Those suffering due to others must change or kill others. Then everybody can be happy.

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I conducted this interview with the subconscious psyche of Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi recently under a huge banyan tree at Manosmin Japatimu, 4000 miles off Chinthasin Island, between 2:00 and 3:00 PM IST. Those unfamiliar with radicopathy should not practice this Spivine Art. I turned into a Boosi Jejanna when conducting and recording this interview with him for you.