October 26, 2013

LETTER TO GOD




Sural Jemin was getting ready to commit suicide during those early hours of the day, jumping off a peak of the Himalayas. Lord Krishna noticed his plight and came to save him. He appeared before Jemin and asked, ‘Why are you committing suicide?’ He replied, “I am completely disgusted with my life. I want to end it. My life has no purpose”. Lord Krishna told him, “Write a letter addressing me. I will answer all of them. If you are not satisfied about your existence even after reading my clarifications to your problems, you can die. I will take away that sin from your soul”. Sural agreed to this proposal and wrote the following letter addressing the God.

Dear God,

My life has been a series of issues but I would write about only eight of them. I don’t like to disturb your peace of mind with my elaborate story of pains and distress.

1. I was born ugly. My parents, relatives and everybody else considered me as an untouchable entity in course of time. I could not tolerate that revulsion and indifference from them. I started living as an orphan. I could not believe in anybody thereafter because my own creatures hated my presence. Why did you give me such beginning?

2. I continued living as a beggar at famous Hindu temples. I wondered observing the attitudes of devotees. They used to come in rich clothes and offer a lot of money and ornaments to God knowing that God does not take any of them. They never bothered about my ugly clothes or my everlasting poverty as a beggar. Even if your devotees have such low standards of thinking, who can help and save destitute creatures like me?

3. Knowing that English was being admired by millions of people in India, I picked reading material from many dustbins and improved my English skills. I read many great books and gained immense knowledge on various aspects and phenomena in this world. I felt like sharing all that invaluable knowledge with as many people as possible to awake and educate them. No school allowed me to work as a teacher. Few had interest in learning what I said. They were not interested in the power and purity of knowledge but on the look of the person delivering it. Nobody treated me as an intelligent person because I had no certificates or attractive look. Why?

4. A very beautiful and sensitive orphan loved me when I was crossing 30. I felt so possessive of her that she appeared like a Goddess to me. She died within 40 days of my association with her with cancer. I had no money to save her taking her to a hospital. I allowed her to die slowly due to my poverty and helplessness. Those memories are still haunting me. Part of the reason for my decision to die now is to get rid of those chasing memories.

5. I moved from place to place as a ticketless passenger in trains to understand human life better. Everywhere I observed selfishness and carelessness in millions of people. They were all great actors and actresses in their lives. Very few of them were living honestly, with real fear of God and sin. They had no individuality of their own. They were playing different roles to satisfy or bother others directly or indirectly. They were all absolute sinners.

6. I fell in love with nature for some time. I spent in a deep forest observing the lifestyles of a few tribes, animals and birds. Strong and intelligent heads of those tribes were cheating others. I observed the same phenomenon in animals and birds also. Most of them were living killing other creatures for their survival. I hated that environment.

7. I desired to meditate God and attain salvation after listening to the great words of a yogi. He said that this life is a shadow of my soul and so to forget about the comforts of the body and focus on the spiritual journey of my soul. I practiced meditation for some months sitting alone in a closed cave but my body got weakened slowly in this process. I stopped meditating. I concentrated on the energy of my body for survival. I had no control on my mind.

8. I spent about four years exclusively thinking about Karma of every creature. It is our asset. It chases us regularly. Our comforts and sadness are a result of our Karma. Still, we can face it and partly change it with strong will and virtues. I led my life patiently for all these years, despite many tragic turns in it. I lost that patience now. I want to end this life now and clear the burden of all these sins in my next birth. I am dying as a sage, not as an orphan.

Lord Krishna read this letter patiently. He wrote the following reply letter to him within a day.   

1. You worried about your ugliness. There are thousands of exceptionally beautiful creatures and phenomena in this universe. Some are seen by others and appreciated but they cannot understand that language of communication. They continue to live not fearing criticism or expecting appreciation from others. None of them ever thinks of their features or qualities. They never commit suicide like humans. They do not depend on others. They face heat, rain and cold of the nature without complaining to me at all. You got more intelligence and power than them to live happily among different oddities and challenges. Still why are you angry with me?

2. Ninety percent of my devotees act formal roles only. They think that they can cheat me through their gimmicks. They wear colorful clothes, get their heads tonsured for me, offer various amounts of money and gifts to satisfy me artificially. I observe their thoughts and lifestyles and laugh within myself regularly. Accepting money and little gifts from them, as a beggar, you committed more sins. They offered immoral and illegal money to you. So, you shared part of their sins, living based on the alms of those sinners. Instead of sitting at temples for food, you should have gone to government hospitals and schools. You can see many poor people there. You must have begged money and other things from them for your survival. Most of them refuse to offer you anything. If some of them are offering something to you voluntarily or after understanding your tragic life, it is morally and legally acceptable substance from them. They live more honestly than my colorful and attractive devotees at temples. Most of them never visit a temple. They neither have time nor resources to visit my artificial abodes of show, established by selfish and manipulative man. You must accept donation from the poorest of the poor only to understand me better in this material world but you chose temples to live lazily and comfortably. You lived shamelessly.

3. You learnt English and gained immense knowledge on various aspects of life and phenomena in this world but you failed to realize that knowledge is the least wanted item to materialists. They crave those things, which make their lives more and more sad, uncomfortable and sinful because it is their Karma. It does not allow them to seek and utilize easily accessible and comprehensible knowledge. You did not realize that you cannot change anybody teaching them about virtues. There are scriptures and saints in every age in some form or the other. In fact, I lived among them as an ordinary human being for many years. Even then, many of them neglected me because I was easily accessible to them. They run after futile dreams and endless fancies, not benefitting from vast resources of knowledge and directions to the path of salvation around them. They think that knowledge is useless. They are deeply attracted towards money, material assets, physical comforts and impossible ideas. You should not distribute knowledge freely to anybody because they consider it as valueless. Instead, you should have spent your life silently without bothering about educating others. You should have thought more about yourself than others. You are responsible for your destiny. Struggle to understand it. Strive to change your course of journey. You are coming alone into this world. You will leave this abode of shadows all alone. It means you are one. Change yourself first.

4. Everybody falls in love and admiration with somebody or something in this world. She died earlier than you because it was her schedule of spiritual journey. You were just a nominal role player in her series of different lifetimes and related experiences. She consoled you for some time as your beloved because you played similar role in her previous lifetime. She paid back that borrowed sense of love and care to you in this lifetime to clear her balance of attachments and burden. Dying early, she did not allow you to attach more to the account of her soul. She is relieved to that extent. You are still suffering recollecting those memories related to her because it is part of your Karma. You must realize that nothing is reliable in this world. Everything is transient. To provide you with that experience only, she spent with you for some time. It means she was the best teacher in your life. I teach my creatures in different ways but most of them fail to benefit from those lessons. They foolishly go to schools, colleges and universities thinking that there is extraordinary knowledge there from which they can gain a lot. It shows that they are devising more plans and policies to further spoil their thoughts and actions. If every educated person becomes great in this world, what is the need of temples? They know what is good or bad? Why are they committing sins and crimes despite being scholars and scientists! They indirectly teach you that they cheat themselves playing all those attractive roles out of their egos. Death is inevitable. Bear with this reality.

5. Sun shines brightly in the sky according to his scheduled duty by me. Moon is also a source of light and happiness at night. They are doing their duties. Similarly humans also take births in this world to do their duties. Before criticizing others, you must have realized that you were also a big actor in this world. You continued to live without bothering about many unfortunate creatures around you. There were men and women with various physical and mental impairments and limitations. There were thousands of animals and birds suffering with various diseases, accidents and struggle for existence in highly testing environments. You never subjected yourself to that set of difficulties and pain to understand life better but chose such ways and means which keep you unaffected. You took this form of life only because you are a sinner. You will take many lifetimes ahead because you learnt very little in this lifetime though I gave you a great opportunity this way. If you criticize or hurt somebody or something else, you will take that burden on to your soul. It means you are committing more sins unnecessarily indulging in the spiritual journeys of other sinful creatures. Great saints never come to you. You should struggle a lot to know about them. They don’t pity you even if you approach them after years of search and repentance because they are focused on their salvation. They took life only because they did not yet get salvation. When they have no time to clear their spiritual burden, how can they spend time for you? Don’t depend on others. Your Karma decides whom you should meet and how you should progress in your spiritual journey. Pray me honestly. I help you reach me fast. I don’t like or dislike anybody. I simply see how you are all playing your destined roles. My actual help is very little because I cannot erase your Karma from the account of your soul. Reform yourself.

6. Man is an intelligent creature compared to other creatures in my universe. There is no much difference between man and other creatures. Man often thinks that he can control everything around him. He seeks pleasure beating dogs, hunting beasts and exploiting helpless fellow humans. He has to pay for every sin he commits, sooner or later. Nature keeps you happy if you have to get that experience according to your Karma. The same nature impairs or kills you if you are destined to it. Scientists think of collecting and storing electricity from lightning. Cattle keepers and other innocent ones run to the shelter of trees when it is raining heavily. Some of them die due to thunderbolts falling on those trees. Lightning is the same with unique qualities. Scientists see it as a source of electricity. Laymen die due to it as part of their Karma. Nature serves you based on what you deserve but not what you desire from it. It is part of my drama. It is also playing a nominal role based on my instructions. Never criticize nature for what you lost because of it. It helps you live your Karma, nothing more than that. Man is killing fellow human beings for his pleasure or ego. Animals kill fellow animals for their survival. Which is better?

7. You can dream of anything because I equipped you with such faculty of thinking and imaginations but you can do only that which your soul is capable of. Rich people have millions of rupees and uncountable assets but how many of them are morally strong and happy? They know about their crimes and sins. On the other hand, many orphans and beggars are living patiently and happily for long despite the fact that nobody wants them in this world. A beggar learns more from his lifetime and lessens the burden of his soul than rich and comfortable people in this world. If you are facing more difficulties and pain continuously, it means your soul is progressing faster towards realization of self and salvation than others. I make you realize me through subjecting you to hardships, tragedies and sorrow. So, ask me to give you more difficulties and pain to understand me early and reach me fast. If you want to be comfortable and happy like all those rich and luxurious people around you, you have to wait thousands of years to understand and reach me. Take what is given to you. If you want and struggle for more, you will suffer later.

8. Understand that even sages have no authority to end their lives voluntarily. Your extensive knowledge or experience as a saint does not authorize you to abruptly close your destined spiritual journey. Such souls suffer without getting a chance to take another lifetime early. Suicide is a big spiritual crime. Both your birth and death should happen naturally, according to the account of your soul. Committing suicides, many enter another long path of difficulties and pain in a series of extended lifetimes. I cannot save such souls from that additional burden of lifetimes. How you are born, live and die depend on the journey of your soul. Body should not take decision about the path of soul. You should regulate your thoughts accordingly based on your knowledge about your lifetime gained through my direct and indirect instructions to you regularly in this world in various ways and forms. Hope you understood the message of my clarifications to you. Remember that spiritual knowledge is such, which cannot be explained completely through words of material world. Your soul is the right learner and teacher to you. Many things happen in this universe, which are incomprehensible and intangible to ordinary human beings.

Jemin read this reply from Lord Krishna and decided to continue his life. He withdrew from the idea of suicide.

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